I think I’m going to- I think I’m going to drink a box…yes, a box not a bottle of wine and cry till I just have nothing left. Where is the justice in life some days ? How can something so unfair happen and not be corrected~ I’m just sitting here at a loss.
My dear friend Andrea is going to Hospice- I have shared so much of my life over the past 10 years with her and she was always there for me giving me kindly mother advice~ because she knew I couldn’t ask my own. Two young boys and a husband that adores her…everything that all of us wants, and she had it all- great scene of humor, so flipped smart in the prime of her life, how fair is this?
I know I should spin this in my brain, that she’s so fucking awesome that God needs her up there- But I’m being selfish, sad and how much loss of important people in my life can he take from me in one month? Seriously, it just to much for me, this news is just to much for me.
My last talk with her ~ she was so positive and upbeat ~ she encouraged me to get my license, thanked me for doing Endowment and laughed at my telling her about how screwed up my world was. She was wrapped in a blanket on the sofa, and we were both looking at the same star…after all the treatment she couldn’t have visitors, and I would take a late night phone call from her all day long….. She told me she loved me, and I know she does. I’m so sad I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye to her~ Rather I cant, the family has asked that there be no visitors and After coming down off my two weeks of hell I totally understand. This just sucks….seriously sucks.
Please Pray for her and her family- Pray she finds peace after a really long battle, pray her boys find comfort in their world and that her husband will eventually recover from the pain and hurt of loosing his partner. I’m personally going to go cry now~ Just to much for me.
