Yep, Ive had a day….and when I say Ive had a day~ you know its bad.
It started at 8 a.m. in the showroom of the jaguar dealer, and learning that my service was going to cost $200.00 more than expected…and that spiraled into my laptop computer crashing, and my desktop crashing with my wonderful new security software….finding out my drive train is bad and needs replacing, getting served papers for small claims court and to finish it off….My Father decides to call me for the first time in 6 years. Hes concerned about me……Can I drag my ass of the floor from laughing now ?
My father wasn’t concerned about me when my mother died. He wasn’t concerned about me finding out that hes a child molester….he wasn’t concerned about ever doing the right thing in his entire life including his other children, and guiding them to be responsible adults. Hes not concerned that they are both in bankruptcy and foreclosure …he thinks they are moving to Florida to co-habitat in his double wide …and he very proudly told me that Obama is going to make sure that we all get a free deal. I’m starting to wonder why I ever saved in my 401K and actually earned a paycheck.
To be completely honest with all of you. He is requesting photos of my daughters. He wants to reconnect with them. He wants me to give him a call…. Be alone with my daughters at almost 69…I would rather stick a hose to my tail pipe and pass it through the window and get in while starting the sucker up with the windows closed. Nope…..
Simply never going to happen, I feel bad ~ he is at the end, he knows that hes not going to last forever….he was nervous and scattered, I don’t know if there is more going on…however…. its not my end this week and my end with him ~started the day I found out what he had done to my brother, and I simply can never have anyone in my life that does something like that. No forgiveness, no sympathy…no nothing.
Im glad I spoke to him, I feel vindicated that he gets hes a huge train wreck…but I did find it interesting that with all his concern for me, he really never inquired what really was happening in my life, just wanted me to know what was happening in his. Some things never change. I’m very pleased as hard as it was…that its one more chapter in my life closed….My Bags are getting much lighter this year, and I may for one simple minute begin to enjoy life. Imagine that…really awesome feeling.
You hang in there.. Bad days come and go.. they just sometimes come to often and don’t go fast enough.. but hang tough anyway!